Honesty: Food

     i have an interesting relationship with food.  I love to eat and love tasty treats.  I also have lots of issues with weight, acne (yep at 30), mood, energy level you name it!  Over the years I have tried lots of different "diets" to improve these situations.  I quote the word diets because they werent really diets but lifestyle changes.  I was a vegan for 3 years then when gluten free then paleo, well 95% paleo.  I been on this journey for years.  I was reading for months about veganism before I finally tried it.  I like to do lots of research.  I have read more books on food and eating than any other kind of book.  I read cookbooks like they were books, each recipe...  I think food should be seen as more than just something you eat, but how you fuel your body, as medicine and a way to heal. I have learned a lot about food and I have learned a lot about how food affects me.  I think there are many foods in this world that we eat that arent good for us.  Gluten is at the top of the list.  Back in the day when we baked our own bread I think it was less bad, but still.  I have never been tested to see if I was a Celiac, but I know that after giving up gluten for a few months eating again was an awful idea!  It makes me balloon out and look like I am 5 months pregnant.  Not a very good look...  It also hurts!  I get a headache and feel cloudy.  I also get mean.  I believe this is all do to the fact that I am being poisoned...  Recently when I tried to drink butter in my coffee I learned it also makes me very unpleasant.  I go to a dark place.  I should also mention that I am Bipolar.  When I went vegan I improved a ton!  I had very few episodes.  When I started eating meat again I was in a weird state of angry depression for the first few months.  I cried all the time and would yell at anyone.  I think this was all the extra hormones from the animals I was eating.  I am fine with it now.  I do feel better when I eat organic meat, but you can only do so much of that when you are broke...  So I think it was the hormones in the butter that made me crazy not so much the lactose.  It gave me headaches and heartaches.  Not something I want to continue to have.  

I have had many friends with opinions on me and food.  I have also had people who arent my friends have opinions on me and food, these I take much less stock in...  "If its in a blog you believe it."  Yeah.  Not just one blog but I have done research using blogs and what ever I am interested in is found in multiple blogs and webpages.  "I like to over complicate my life."  This one is the funniest to me.  I am trying to uncomplicat my life.  Life is too short to feel awful all the time and if I can fix that with food, YaY!  I dont feel I ask for special treatment.  I have many friends who take good care of me and my issues.  This is something that always pleasantly surprises me!  Makes me feel loved.  "Sarah chooses not to eat cheese."  Yep, but not for the same reasons.  I liked cheese, understatement, I loved cheese!  I choose not to eat it so I wont feel suicidal, yeah the butter made me feel suicidal.  Not cool or worth it to me.  

I feel like I am the best path for me.  Paleoish.  I will keep trying to do what is best for me and not care what people think.  I want to be the happiest, healthiest version of me.  Crying and yelling at people I love is not on that list.

Thanks for listening!

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New closet bar installation:  The left hand side is almost screwed in all the way...
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What I Learned This Week: Butter in Coffee is OK

     happy Friday pals!  I have been doing lots of reading on Bulletproof® Coffee this week.  It is a special blend of coffee that you add BUTTER and MCT oil to (which seems to be coconut oil on steroids...).  How gross does that sound?  Blah.  I first found out about this coffee concoction from Kristen's Raw.  She is one of my favorite food bloggers of all times!  I read her blog a TON when I first went vegan.  She was so happy and excited about the awesomeness of vegnism.  I agreed with all the awesomeness in the beginning but at some point it changes.  The honeymoon of being a vegan is short lived and you feel guilt and like a failure for not being able to make it work.  That was how I felt at least...  When I decided to start eating meat again I couldnt look at her blog for months.  I felt like I had failed, at life and to her.  About a month ago I went back to see what she was up to and to my surprise she had changed her ways also!  What?!?  She was now an omnivore too!  I fell even more in love with her blog!  Going into being a vegan isnt easy.  I had a harder time giving up cheese than I did giving up smoking.  You go in with high hopes and it is hard work.  When it doesnt work you think it is you but I dont think it is.  I am sure it works for some people, but my guess would be less people then you think...  Kristen even did a podcast with Dave of The Bulletproof Executive.  Dude is crazy!  He reminds me of Tim Ferriss.  The interview is great.  I agree with soooo much of it!  I figured I could at least try making coffee with butter in it.  The coffee beans Dave sells are not cheap.  I figured I should try it with regular coffee first.  I watched a lot of YouTube videos and lots of people use coconut oil instead of MCT oil.  I have some so lets give it a shot!

My breakfast this AM.  Broccoli with 2 eggs over medium, bacon and coffee with butter and coconut oil.  You HAVE to blend it!  I used an immersion blender.  It gets really frothy.  Totes weird.  It smells really nutty, like hazelnuts, kinda.  I took my first sip.  It was creamy and delicious!  Kinda bitter at the end because of the lack of sweetener, but I later added some.  Here is what I did.

1. One cup of hot coffee, one tablespoon of UNSALTED grass fed butter (it HAS to be grass fed or you dont get the right good fats) and one tablespoon of coconut oil blended with immersion blender.
2. I added ice and poured it into another glass and back again to cool it.  
3. I drank half of it and decided it need to be sweeter!  I added less than a teaspoon of Truvia and a squirt of chocolate syrup...

It was super tasty!  I feel like I have more energy...  But that could be the power of suggestion, either way I will take it!  I normally add unsweetened almond milk.  I might like this better.  Who would have thought!  Now Titanium is playing on my Pandora.  Its a sign!  

I hope to be watching Lunar Orbiter’s Launch to the Moon on NASA TV.

Some times we need a little help making things better.  Here is a magic button!

I need a Cabana Mezzanine Playhouse!

Riddick comes out today!!!!!!!  O.O  <3  <3  <3

• I have 5ish pairs of leggings and can only find one pair...  And they have holes in them!  I guess I am more religious than I thought...
• I have been feeling like a chocolate monster lately.  Its weird I dont normally crave a lot of chocolate. But I will be making this Chocolate Pudding later today! 
• I over extend myself with goals.  I have really high hopes for myself, but rarely live up.  I need to learn that this is ok.  I need to make things more manageable.  Not expect less from life but be more realistic.

What did you learn this week?

What I Learned This Week: Megalodon was a hoax...

    this weeks episode of What I Learned This Week is going to be pretty shark heavy, cause duh it was shark week!  I apologize in advance and will try to keep it to a minimum.

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 I was pretty excited for Discovery Channels Megalodon: The Monster Shark Lives (ps I think it is super funny that Discovery Channel changed the name of the show on their site to Megalodon: The Monster Shark and got rid of the Lives...  Shady.)  I didnt think for a moment that these monsters were really still around.  I mean they could be but I didnt believe boats could have recently be sunk by them and we not hear about it... Wil Wheaton had some great things to say about the mockumentary.  I agree with lots of it.  If you cant tell that the footage on the boat is professionally done and not with a crappy camera you are silly!  Plus how could that camera survive in the salt water to be viewed later?  The large amount of photo-shopping was also humorous.  I am not sure if I would go so far to say the public needs an apology but it should have been made very clear that it was fiction.  There was a very fast and short disclaimer at the end but it didnt say it was fake.  I enjoyed the show.  It was a fun idea, but I know there are people out there that would believe it.  Are we now going to hear Voodoo Sharks is fake too?

Another article on the hoax and some real fact on the AWESOME Megalodon.

I really hope scientific mockumentaries are going to become a trend like the mermaids.  That would really bum me out.  There are so many ahMazing and true stories to be told...

Look at all the free press Shark Week is now getting!  There is no such thing as bad publicity...

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Cooking up the world's first in-vitro beef burger!  The ex-vegan in me finds this fascinating!  I feel vegans could eat this meat since you animal was harmed, but I feel like the excuse would be that to get the cells for growing the meat a cow was harmed.  But one cow vs millions would be amazing!  I totally want to try it!  It does seem like it would be squishy but the tasters liked it.  Crazytown!  

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I also learned why I am still single.  7 Tips for Keeping Your Man (from the 1950s) and I only was good at one of them...  Can you guess which one?

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I love this Spock eared iPhone case!  I would totally hit on a guy if he had one.  Talk nerdy to me...

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I discovered StarTalk Radio Show with Neil deGrasses Tyson.  I may be super behind here but the only interweb type radio I listen to is Pandora...  I learned that the universe is made up of 80% dark energy 16% dark matter 4% everything else.  Most of the gravity in the universe has no known origin which makes it dark matter and it used to be called "missing matter" but we should really call it "too much gravity".  I didnt know that...  I might become a bigger space nerd now!

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Animals such as sharks, alligators and turtles can potentially live forever!  I have heard such things about lobsters but how cool would it be to meet a 1,000 year old shark!  I heard this on a Sharks After dark episode (before I got annoyed by the host and quit watching.  Kinda sad I miss Tara Reid make an ass of herself...  "Whales are mammals and sharks are just animals."  Or maybe they are fish?!?).  Sharks dont die of old age!  Sharks will keep growing as long as they can find food to eat and have the energy to hunt, but once they get really big they end up starving because they cant hunt enough to have enough energy to keep hunting...  Vicious cycle.  

This is what I learned this week!  What did you learn?

Loads of laundry done: one started...

Time wasted on podcasts:  only 40 mins...

Emotions on missing a camping trip this weekend:  Lots of sadness!  I had been looking forward to it all year...

Emotions on what I will really be doing this weekend:  Excited!  Bridal showers are fun!